Beyond The Idol (The Porcelain Prince, Chapter 7) (series: Vampires, Book 1)

The Dark Angels aren’t bound by any vampire myth. Sunlight doesn’t burn them. Wooden stakes are a joke. As for Cage Knox… Each day I discover something far darker behind the idol wrapped in silk and stage lights. A monster created by a past no boy should have to endure. The Porcelain Prince has terrible secrets, and today, they’re starting to unravel.

Before I know it, I’m chasing the ghost of a boy who survived the impossible and became the stuff of legend. A boy I’m desperate to save—or die trying.  

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Aimee

This is a bigass house. A huge white villa with a dense garden, located on top of a cliff and overlooking a wild, often loud river. It would make a perfect setting for a gothic movie if it weren’t the lively backstage of the Dark Angels shooting material for their fans. 

The house bustles with activity during the day, but at nightfall, it’s as if it crosses a portal to a different world. The place becomes a tomb, suspended in a strange universe, with me as its sole inhabitant. Creepy sounds echo from its furthest corners, filled with the breath of night. At night, the Dark Angels go out to hunt or rest, or at least that’s what Verona told me. 

“Can I ask you something?” I say during our weekly session, focused on the new sketch I’m drawing of Cage. It comes easily, especially now that I get to watch him every day, even if only from a distance. “How did they become what they are? I mean—”

“I know what you mean,” she cuts me off before I can say the word. 

I bite my lip to keep the word in.

“Listen, Cage said you would tell me anything I needed to know, so help me make sense of these visions. By telling me what I need to know about him.” 

Verona glares like she can see through me, so I decide it’s safer to veer a little off course. 

“Well, mainly about what they are in general. I mean, what are their weaknesses, which myths are true, what is bullshit. That kind of information is vital to protect against the spells their enemies plan to cast at the next concert, for example.”

“The boys won’t rely on you to create the defense, Aimee. They won’t rely on anyone.” Then, lowering her voice. “They’re vampires. Marvel heroes have nothing on them. All they need is to know exactly what they’re up against.”

“In order to provide that, I need to know what their enemies are likely to strike at. It would restrict the range of research, and buy us time.”

Verona looks over the banister at the bustling production set on the ground floor. Dante and Onyx are pretending to wrestle a smoking roast on the kitchen island, while Cage and Zion are trading punches in a boxing match on Wii.

“Okay, but not here.”

She motions for me to get up from my beanbag chair, which I only achieve after a series of awkward tries that earn me giggles from the surrounding staff. I follow her to the garden, into a wonderfully warm spring day filled with the scent of lilies, a fresh tinge of water on the air from the river. With all teams busy inside, we have a surprising level of privacy here.

“There goes one myth, at least—that vampires abhor the public eye,” I begin. “If anything, they seem to thrive on it.”

“Well, these vampires were pop idols first,” Verona says as she lowers herself into a loveseat. 

 I take the one in front of her, or rather drop into it unceremoniously. 

“So, how long have they been what they are?” I look through the glass wall into the house, my eyes instinctively searching for Cage. 

When he’s not looking, I can’t tear my eyes away from him. The man seems made to spite the pussy, and today he’s especially mouthwatering. The way that black silk shirt clings to his body… It’s unbuttoned down to his stomach, revealing his marble chest and the angular lines of his muscles that I can’t help licking my lips watching.

Fuck, I should stop torturing myself. 

I’m a gray mouse in a dress and a pompon. At least the dress tightens at my waist to make it look like I have tits and ass, which is an illusion. I’m thin, overly pale, and my eyes are disproportionately large compared to the rest of my face. Sometimes I think the Silly Face IG filter was created after me. If it wasn’t, then it should have been. 

“So they were already idols when they were turned?” I say, tearing my eyes from him. “Does it even work that way? With biting and turning, I mean?”

“Nobody really knows when they got turned, or who turned them, but it surely happened when they were already idols,” Verona replies, sitting back in her loveseat and looking inside through the glass wall, too. 

“How long have you known them?” 

“Ever since they were kids, really,” she says. “Cage was thirteen when I first met him.” Her red lips pull into a warm smile. It makes her look almost beautiful. Motherly. “His family had brought him in for auditions. They were simple, hard-working people from a small town near the DMZ. Cage was the oldest of two boys. They said that Cage was a devoted child who helped every single day around the farm. He’d get up at seven even on Sundays, feed the animals and clean the stables. He went to school religiously, cram school too. He dreamed of going to university, getting a good job and all that, but his parents believed he had potential for more.”

“He didn’t have any special ambitions? That’s unusual for a pop idol. They’re an ambitious bunch.”

“Cage is inherently hard-working and focused, and he always had a good sense of what was possible. He didn’t aspire to what he deemed unattainable. He was a strong, dependable, quiet kid, and even though life on the farm was hard, he never complained. But there was also a more sensitive side to him, one that he never showed to the world, not even to his parents. Whenever the animals got sick, he would spend the night with them in the stables. He’d stroke them and sing to them until they got better. One night, his father went to bring him food, and heard him. He described the experience as almost mystical, causing him to drop the plates. His son had the voice of an angel.” She turns her gaze toward the sky. 

“Anyway, for a family like the Knoxes, sending their son to a school for the arts was out of the question, financially and logistically. Cage’s only chance was to get a scholarship, but even for that, he needed a background in music and dance, which he didn’t have.  So his parents looked for alternatives.”

Her eyes level to mine. “Luckily, Cage had more than just a great voice. At thirteen, he was already a very pretty boy. Star material from the get-go, a diamond in the rough. He killed it at the auditions, leaving the competition in the dust. It was only a matter of days until the company discovered his talent for dancing. Even though thirteen is normally a late start for a dancer, Cage was special, and he did great. But soon, he found out that his power of seduction was both a gift and a curse.”

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Shadow Stalker (The Porcelain Prince, Chapter 6) (series: Vampires, Book 1)

Cage

My brothers were right – I should have stayed away. Instead, I’ve been watching her sleep for weeks.

Aimee’s visions are getting stronger, pulling her into fevered dreams that leave her reaching for me in the darkness. Dante warns me that I’m teetering on the edge of losing control, but when she wakes up gripping my hand like her life depends on it, I know I can’t walk away.

She’s seen something. Something that has her desperate to dive back into the visions, no matter how much pain they cause her. She’s begging for more time together, claiming she needs that to make better sense of her visions. The problem is, every moment I spend near her makes it harder to resist the monster inside me.

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I’ve seen a lot of women in my life. So many that I lost the ability to feel attraction to them. Hundreds have paraded in front of us at fan meetings, and many of them found ways to infiltrate the places where we ate or the flights we took, with some good stalking-strategists making it even past security into our hotel rooms. None of us Dark Angels ever complained, though. We knew what we signed up for when we chose the way of fame, fully aware most of the attention would be unwanted.

But Aimee is more than just a fan with a crush. She and I have a connection that feels deep, inscrutable.

“You shouldn’t get so close.”

I find Dante is standing by the window, like a ghost, breezing in with the night air.  “Her blood calls to you. It’s dangerous.”

“I wouldn’t hurt her.” 

“Not yet.” Then, after a charged break, “you know what happened the last time one of us couldn’t keep their distance.”

I usually spend a lot of effort trying to keep that particular memory out of my head, but it’s hard when you’re the living proof of what happens when a vampire loses control.

“It’s not the same. She and I have a strange connection, the things she sees…” I frown at Aimee’s sleeping form in the moonlight filtering directly from the window onto her bed like on an altar, Dante and I hidden in the shadows like demons.

“It’s the mirror effect,” he says. “You see some of your own agony reflected in her. For the first time, you desire someone’s blood the way he desired yours. So step away, Cage.”

Dante and I have been through similar experiences, and we share the same curse, which is why he thinks he gets it—but he doesn’t.

“I can’t. I need to understand why she sees the things she does.”

“I understand the need to solve the mystery, but now’s not the time. Not while her body is still pulsing with the fever of her last vision. Her blood is boiling in her veins.” 

“That’s exactly why I can’t leave her alone. It’s the closest we can get to those visions, and to understanding why they’re happening.”

“Okay, but then have someone else monitor her. Preferably a human.”

“Her visions are about me, Dante, I’m the only person she needs here.”

He rests a hand on my shoulder. “I’m worried about what she does to you, Cage. You’re teetering on the edge of a cliff.”

The same sense of fatality has crept into my veins, too, but for some masochistic reason I don’t want it gone.

“It’s been so long since I’ve felt something,” I say quietly, eyes still on Aimee. She looks so beautiful, so innocent while she sleeps, and the more I look at her, the less able I am to turn away. “Anything at all.”

“This is toxic. For both of you.”

“I won’t fall for her, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

Dante shakes his head. 

“And yet she’s more than just another fangirl to you.”

“It’s not like I want her.” I snap around with an iron gaze. “But I need to understand her. Ziggy Kwan intended to use her against us someway.”

“Yes, but you killed Ziggy, and the secret died with him. He told his brother what we are, but not about the girl.”

“Oh, but we don’t know that, do we?”

He sighs like he’s done trying to reason with me. “Then we should find a way to isolate her permanently, but not by keeping her here, with us.” 

“You saw what happened today. She’s having visions, this time not about our past, but about our future.” I return my eyes to Aimee. “It seems her closeness to us is useful.” My eyes burn, hungry for the sight of her, even as I’m watching her. 

Dante takes a few moments to think about it. 

“Okay, so she’s useful. But if the rest of us go along with this, it better have results, Cage. And once she’s exhausted her usefulness, you’ll part ways with her for good.”

My jaw locks.

“She can’t stay a minute longer than necessary,” Dante doubles down. “Otherwise, sooner or later, you will take her blood.”

I wish I could contradict him, but I can’t. Every fiber in my body thirsts for her blood. She lets out a low, tormented moan, and my muscles tighten, thoughts of very carnal nature blooming in my head. I jump up and turn my back to her, squeezing my eyes shut.  

I can feel Dante staring hard at me as if this proves his point. 

And maybe it does. 

One way or the other, Aimee Rouge awakened a part of me that no one has touched in a very long time. A part that I’d thought dead after all the twisted experiences I’ve had behind closed doors. We seem so delicious and seductive on the outside, but the truth of the Dark Angels has nothing to do with the personas we project to the world. On the inside, we’re fucked up, damaged goods.

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Fangirl (The Porcelain Prince, Chapter 4) (series: Vampires, Book 1)

Aimee’s POV

A private jet. The hottest boy band in the world. And Cage Knox across from me — beautiful, terrifying, and very much not human. I used to dream of this moment. Now I just hope I survive it.

CHAPTER IV

Aimee

I ride to the airport in a long black limo, crammed between producers barking orders into their phones, but at least Cage isn’t riding with me, which is a relief. 

One of the assistants calls my parents right in front of me, and informs them that I took an internship with the Dark Angels. She says in a chirpy voice that I was over-the-moon about it, which I probably would be, under any other circumstances. When I desperately signal her to give me the phone, she covers the mouthpiece and whispers angrily that I look too distressed to talk to them. That I’d make Mom worry. The unspoken ‘ungrateful brat’ in her tone isn’t lost on me, and when the girls next to me grab my shoulders and shove me back against the seat, I know they share her opinion. 

Distressed.

I must still have the wild look on my face from when I first found out. 

I wonder what they’d do if they knew what I do. 

Cage warned me about breathing a single word about his secret, which means that none of the army of people working for the Dark Angels—an entire industry in themselves—has any idea what they’re dealing with. I doubt that any of them has ever experienced an idol baring his fangs inches away from their faces, then basically kidnapping them. 

But if their poisonous glares are any indication, they’d kill to be in my place right now.

Not that I blame them. Just yesterday, I would have killed to be in my place, too. But now, with the growing vivid knowledge that my crush is a vampire? 

We slip into the airport through a secluded alleyway that’s clearly reserved just for us, pulling up beside a private jet with its passenger stairs already waiting. On the ground, staff members buzz with phones and gadgets, their business swelling into a frenzy as the limo carrying the members rolls to a stop.

The wind whips across my face the moment I step out, tossing my hair in every direction, until I duck into the cozily luxurious interior. My jaw drops. Gold trim gleams against beige leather, and every booth is its own haven, with deep seats, private screens, tablet tables, cupholders. A flight attendant seizes my arm — not gently — and steers me toward one of the booths. I sink into the seat, which folds around me like a cocoon. It’s so absurdly comfortable, so insistently designed for relaxation, that a sigh escapes before I can stop it.

But when the Dark Angels file in, one by one, my breath catches.

My pulse skyrockets when Cage lowers himself elegantly into the booth right across from me. There’s enough space between us for both of us to stretch out our legs, and yet I can feel his energy on my skin. It’s electrifying, raising goose bumps all over me. 

Every cell of my body screams with the awareness of what he really is, but his beauty still sucks me in like an inescapable magnet. That perfect bone structure, his porcelain skin, the sinful shape of his lips and the shadowy darkness around his eyes that emphasizes their depth. What many would speculate is perfectly applied makeup or even surgically enhanced perfection is actually the natural allure of a mythical predator. 

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The Covenant (The Porcelain Prince, Chapter 3) (series: Vampires, Book 1)

Cage’s POV

She thinks she’s just a fan with a sketchbook. Cute, distracted, too lost in her fantasies to realize the danger she’s in. But her drawings of me, they don’t depict the kind of things you stumble into by accident. They’re secrets no one should know, and they’ve already put a target on her back.

I should silence her, end the risk before it spreads. That’s what anyone in my situation would do. Instead, I find myself caging her in, breathing in the sweetest scent I ever felt, and offering her a choice.

Come with me… or else.

CHAPTER III

Cage

I measure her from head to toe as she stands only a few feet away from me. The scent of her blood is distracting, but at least the surge has passed—it’s the reason why I gave her brandy. She’s more comfortable with my presence now, and her racing blood has calmed down. I caught her scent from the moment she walked into the back room, we all did, which is why we used our bodies to lower the room temperature. Without room temperature control, the scent of her blood would have been maddening.  

Just a few moments ago, when her cheeks flushed red, my need for it spiked. She’s like a decadent cake in front of a starved man. Who would have thought that someone like her could hold such power. But her blood isn’t the only thing that’s special about this small, pretty girl in a navy blue uniform and an apron.

Her face is, too. Her eyes are particularly large and prominent, dwarfing her mouth and her button nose, her chin tiny, her face perfectly heart-shaped. She reminds me of an old geisha painting because she’s not only the kind of girl that would stick out in a crowd, but one you can’t look away from once your eyes rest on her. 

The more I look at her, the more beautiful she seems with those long lashes shielding her large eyes, giving her an air of melancholy. The way the bodyguards checked her out before they left the diner on my order wasn’t lost on me either, but her head is too high up in the clouds for her to even notice the kind of attention she draws. By the way she carries herself and how stunned she is by my attention, she probably doesn’t even consider herself all that attractive, which is preposterous.

“What if I told you that your sketches were the reason we booked this place?” I walk closer, my finger tracing the counter. “That you are the only reason we’re here?”

“My sketches?” she blabbers.

“Tell me something, Aimee.” I tilt my head to the side, my eyes fixed on her. “Why do you draw me?”

She bites her lower lip like she’s just been caught red-handed. “Why does it matter? There are thousands of girls out there doing the same thing. It’s not like I was doing anything out of the ordinary.”

“Oh, but you were. Your drawings are extraordinary because what they represent can’t come from just pure imagination.”

She scoffs, folding her arms across her chest. “Of course it’s nothing but imagination.” 

I close the space between us entirely, trapping her between my arms and the counter. She inhales sharply, her big eyes growing even bigger, her arms tighter across her chest.

“What you draw actually exists, Aimee. And I think you know it.”

Her brow furrows in confusion before she bursts into laughter. “You mean vampires? Come on. Did Louise put you up to this? Is this some kind of prank, candid camera or something?” She leans back to glance toward the kitchen, then glances at the diner’s corners to search for cameras. I wait for her to confirm their absence, keeping a straight face. 

“You must connect to your art in a special way, because you couldn’t have known these things otherwise,” I tell her, my voice like velvet. “Which is why you are in grave danger – and you need to listen to me very carefully.”

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The Mask Breaker (The Porcelain Prince, Chapter 2) (series: Vampires, Book 1)

Aimee’s POV:

I thought my sketches of the Porcelain Prince would stay on napkins, in daydreams, and the no-name little site I sometimes upload them to. But when the Dark Angels walk into our tiny diner, and Cage Knox fixes those impossible eyes on me, I realize I’ve stepped straight into the pages of my own obsession. The air turns cold, my pulse won’t settle, and I can’t tell if this is fate or a beautiful nightmare that’s just about to come true.

Aimee

My eyes fly from my phone display to the napkin on which I’m scrawling my new sketch. Him. The Porcelain Prince. That face that speaks to me on levels that I only understand with my fingertips. I keep scrawling until the pencil’s tip breaks. I lift my hand, my eyes trained on his face. I wish I could have drawn the lines around his eyes better. The Porcelain Prince’s eyes have fascinated the entire world for years now. It looks like he’s wearing eyeliner, but I’m not so sure. Every time I draw him, I have the feeling that what looks like make-up around his eyes is something else…

“Aimee, I need your help with the private group in the back room.” Craig slides an order pad under my nose, snapping me out of my reverie about Cage Knox. 

“What?” I straighten my back, not sure I heard him right. “Why me?”

He shrugs. “I asked the same question. Their manager won’t tell. But this is f*cking huge for us, so you’re doing it.”

He spins around, wiping his hands on his apron, his broad back disappearing into the back of our diner, while I try to blink the confusion out of my head. Craig wouldn’t even tell me WHO we were hosting until now, and only had me serving the bodyguards and security staff.

The mysterious guests arrived in a row of black cars, while police sealed the entire block for the event, so I knew this was big. Bigger than usual, but no more than Craig-doing-business-with-cartels big, really, and he never lets me in on those. No reason for any of those guys to ask for me specifically, either.

I swipe the order pad off the counter before I follow Craig to the back, feeling the security team’s hawkish glares denting my back. Anxiety hits, and I can barely hide it. I walk down the aisle smoothing the sides of my hair, then brushing my sweaty hands over my uniform. I’m wearing a short navy-blue dress and an apron, both of which hug my body too tightly, but at least there’s no cleavage, and I’m not exactly the curviest of women anyway. In fact, at twenty-one, I still look like an anorexic teenager, which at least puts me off the radar of the difficult clients—the reason why Craig hired me in the first place, I think. I’m anything but Hooters material, and that means less trouble for him.

I stop in front of the back room door, wiping what might be smudges of black eyeliner from under my eyes with my fingers. I have a feeling my makeup looks like shit. I really wasn’t ready for this, Craig, damn you. There’s muffled talking from inside the back room, men’s voices. Pleasant voices. Somehow familiar. One of them chuckles. The sound of something frying sears through the air, and my eyes fly over to the kitchen. Craig is staring at me, signaling me with his chin to go inside. He usually hides it well, but not today. He’s as anxious about this as I am, his eyes are comically wide with it.

Okay, here goes nothing.

I take a deep breath, turn the knob, and enter without knocking. If they asked for me, then they must expect me.

But after the first step, my heart stops. 

Five men, looking as if they’ve just stepped out of the covers of magazines, stare right at me. I marginally register multiple faces around them, but these five stand out like sore thumbs. One has a man bun and a perfectly chiseled face, wearing jeans, boots, and an oversized designer sweater—Diesel. He’s sitting right next to Dante, the dark, mysterious, gentlemanly one, his black turtleneck and fitted suit jacket emphasizing that demeanor. The ones flanking them are unmistakably Zion and Onyx. And all of them are a hundred f*cking percent members of the Dark Angels.

Then there’s the guy in the white linen shirt and ripped jeans. The magnet of the group, at least for me. My bias. I can feel my eyes swelling out of their sockets. Key-shaped earrings dangling from his ears, the shirt clinging to his body, his stare like the caress of a leather whip—Cage Knox, in the f*cking flesh. The Porcelain Prince.

His skin is absolutely flawless even in reality, and there’s no doubt—it’s not the eyeliner that gives the effect of his stare. His eyes really are from another fucking world. Everything is perfect about him, from the shape of his face to his outfit, to his undercut and the ashen strands of hair that fall just right over his forehead. As for the lips… Nope, don’t go there, Aimee Rouge.

I’m standing here with my mouth open while the freaking Dark Angels stare back at me in silence, surrounded by what must be their staff. I’m a deer in the freaking headlights. Trust me, you don’t want the attention of five pop idols and their crew on you at the same time, not while you’re wearing an ill-fitting uniform, your hair is a messy ponytail, and your makeup is barely still holding on.

I clear my throat and step closer to the table, forcing myself to move my attention to their staff. Girls with iPads sit ready to take notes or carry out tasks like well-trained soldiers. From what I’ve heard, they’re used to hours and intensity of work that most people can’t – and don’t even want – to imagine, and they’re clearly efficient as hell. 

“H-hello, my n-name is Aimee Rouge, and I’m your server tonight.” Okay, that sounded stupid. They already knew that.

My index finger shakes uncontrollably as it hovers over the pad, so I pull it closer to my chest before anyone can notice.

I can barely type the producers’ requests, and things get even worse when the boys start placing their orders. Cage is the last one, and I can’t get myself to even glance at him. What if he sees how much of a sucker I am for him? No, shit, stop, how could he ever see that, it’s not written on my face. My head is spinning. I’m his server, it’s disrespectful not to look at him. Come on, look at him.

I raise my eyes from the pad, and meet his gaze. That oh so deservedly famous gaze. The air turns cold. I swear the temperature just dropped by several degrees, otherwise why am I shivering? I’m making a complete idiot of myself. 

“The McFlint beefsteak for me,” he says. “Medium rare. I hear it’s quite famous.” Did that voice just speak only for me? I’m getting lightheaded. I need to get out of here as soon as possible, and no, nothing about this place is famous. McFlint is just a small town diner. Why in the world are the Dark Angels even here? They shouldn’t be here. They shouldn’t be anywhere near this place.

“I’ll be right back with your orders.” F*ck, that sounded as stupid as everything I said before.

I scurry out like a chicken running from slaughter. As soon as the door falls shut behind me, I slap my back against it and wipe my forehead with the back of my hand. I’m still wondering if I’ve slipped into a parallel universe as I stagger my way to the kitchen.

“Craig, what the actual f*ck?” I blurt out. “Why didn’t you tell me so I could prepare for this?”

“What difference would it have made? How would you have prepared for the f*cking Dark Angels and their entire crew?”

“At least I would have worn something else, not this freaking uniform.” Let’s face it, I look as cheap as the burgers he’s frying, and I smell like them, too. 

He holds his palms up.

“In my defense, I didn’t know, okay?”

“You didn’t know it was them?”

“I didn’t know they’d want you! One of their managers, Miss Verona something, called me a few days ago for the reservation; she paid a fat sum in advance to have the whole diner to themselves, and complete secrecy. The rest is history. I didn’t imagine it would be them. And I didn’t imagine she’d walk out of there twenty minutes ago and ask that you serve them, specifically.”  

His eyes fly anxiously toward the door that separates the Angels’ back room from the corridor. Craig is clearly as overwhelmed as I am. The place is a dump, even the private back room is makeshift. It used to be a smoking area back in the day when smoking was good for you.

Out of options, I turn to yoga breathing, propping my hands on my hips, begging the universe that it will help calm me down.

“Do you at least have some idea why they made that request?” I need to make at least a little sense of this.

He grabs my shoulders with his big hands, pinning me in place. “The only thing I know, Aimee, is that we have to make the best of this. It’s a huge opportunity for us!” He winks, squeezing my shoulders for reassurance. “And you know what else is huge? That you get to be so close to your crush.”

The blood drains from my head. “My crush?”

“Come, don’t even. You scrawled his face on a dozen napkins.”

“It’s not like that. He’s not my crush.” Sh*t, this is like my parents catching me masturbating. 

“Right, of course not.” He drops his hands off me and hurries back to the fryers just as more help enters through the back door—Louise, my best friend and the best amateur cook ever. Craig clearly has no intention of telling her who’s here, big secret and all, so I drop the bomb before she lands in the same situation I did. She goes into shock for a few moments and then beams from ear to ear. 

“Are you freaking serious?” she shrieks, but Craig hurries to cover her mouth.

“Shhhhh. We don’t want the press all over this now, do we?”

“Good luck keeping it from them,” she says as she pushes him off and reaches for an apron to tie around her waist. “This entire block is surrounded by black cars and men with sunshades at the wheel. I had to show ID and prove that I worked here for them to let me pass. The press is gonna come asking questions soon enough. This kind of security will draw attention.”

“Then let’s get this over with before they catch wind of it,” Craig says, rubbing his hands together.

It takes three trips carrying two laden trays, one in each hand, for me to bring all orders in, and every time the temperature in the room seems even lower. By the last trip, I don’t have any doubt anymore that it’s not just me. The difference between being inside and outside is obvious. When I walk in there, it’s like walking into a freezer. 

I barely dare raise my eyes for fear that the plates, bottles, and glasses will spill all over our guests. If I want to keep things steady, I have to avoid eye contact, but it’s virtually impossible with Cage watching me – I can feel him through all my pores.

 By the time I finish bringing everything in, the pressure is unbearable, and the cold, goddamn it, the cold.

All my instincts scream that I have to get out of here, and fast.

As soon as everything’s set on their table I hurry out and head over to the bar, seeking shelter under the counter. I pull my knees up and brace myself, doing the yoga breathing, and praying that it actually works this time. I really need to pull myself together. I’ve been drawing him consistently for months now, putting my obsession out there on fan art sites under a pen name, and now it’s gotten to my brain, and I can’t function normally around him, imagining all sorts of things. 

“Aimee.”

I freeze under the counter. It’s his voice. That voice that feels like leather running down your skin. I get up to my feet and look slowly up at him, careful not to lose my shit, but then it hits me. Fuck! The drawing I made of him on the napkin, it’s just under his nose. And he’s seen it. He’s staring down at it right now. 

“Forgive me if I scared you,” he says, stepping behind the counter to my side, and staring up at the bottles shelved along the wall. “I didn’t mean to. I suppose I couldn’t resist the intrigue.” He glances at the napkin, and then at me. He smiles, and I swear the entire world tilts, so much that I have to catch myself against the counter. “You draw faces no one is supposed to ever see, Aimee Rouge. This could prove dangerous – especially if you catch the attention of men like me.”

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Uhealthy Obsession – Chapter I

Bestie, tonight the vault cracks open.
You wanted to know more about Priest Ward—the celibate, whip-wielding Brother Superior of the Iron Cleric and bodyguard to content creator Hailey Saintpatrick—and in Chapter One of Unhealthy Obsession, you’re getting exactly that. This is a good peek behind the curtain, into the story that forged him, the shadows that made him dangerous, and the choices that made him untouchable. Some of your juiciest questions are about to be answered… and a few new ones are going to emerge.

Ready to meet the man before the obsession? Let’s begin.

Note: Mind the triggers! This is a Dark Romance, with dark themes.

Read Priest’s first book, Unholy Intentions, HERE.

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Monastery of the Forge

Normandy

November 12th, 2005

Father Sextus

Starvation can break a man but, occasionally and if he’s formidable enough, it can make him—into a monster. It’s those formidable monsters we’re after like greedy miners after gold, and I’ve just hit a big, fat vein.

I wring my hands, waiting for Reverend Plutarch to show some semblance of enthusiasm. If only he’d get on with it a little fucking faster. But of course the Reverend Father is taking his sweet fucking time. 

“A once in a century find, you say,” he muses, eyes on the video, trying his fucking best to act unimpressed and not have to reward me for this. 

“Of the twelve methods we use to discover talent, this one never fails,” I say as if he needs reminding. “And Item Twenty-Seven, Your Excellency, is a true diamond.”

Plutarch’s expression remains blank, obscured behind his thick beard and bushy eyebrows. I know that ‘talent’ isn’t exactly what he’d call this, but it’s the next best thing, and watching the footage, he can’t deny it. All I can see is the back of the tablet I handed him, but the scraping drag of iron and terrified whimpers tell me he’s at the part where the grate falls shut over the boys’ pit. Not long after, the dogs enter the scene, growling low in their throats. 

Then the other thing enters. 

A normal person, one with a heart, would flinch at every snarl and huff, but not Plutarch. It’s only when the sound of flesh tearing off bone hits that his fingers tighten around the tablet, his fingernails whitening. When the action stops, the kids are still whimpering. The dogs? They’re not breathing. And not because they’re dead—but because they recognized the bigger dog. The reason is staggering, and I’m pretty fucking sure the Reverend Father is shocked for the first time in his life.

I know I was.

He keeps holding the tablet for long seconds after the video has ended. Then, slowly, he lowers it onto the sleek surface of his desk, setting it down with glacial calm.

Fuck him. He’s not fooling anybody.

He thought he’d seen it all in matters of atrocities. After all, he runs the most vicious training camp for contract killers that ever existed—The Forge. Before he became headmaster, he trained the boys himself. Before he trained them, he worked as an operative, as the highest ranked Cleric. And before that, he was one of these boys. Nobody knows what he did to be recruited as a kid, but I’m pretty damn sure it wasn’t anything like this

“Item Twenty-Seven,” he says, “what’s his real name?”

“He doesn’t have one.” I bow slightly, the way one does when speaking to the Reverend Father. “But I do know he’s twelve years old, from Memphis. The Order recruited him themselves, and they sent him here for training.”

“What made them recruit him?” It’s not unheard of for The Order to send in recruits, but still highly unusual. They normally leave the recruiting to us.

I shift my weight, my robe shuffling over the stone tiling, the big dark gothic walls amplifying the sound. “Something he did in a ghetto. And what the employees of a coffee shop found behind the dumpsters in the morning.”

The black chair creaks as Reverend Plutarch leans against its large back. 

“What did they find?”

“Dead men. Big, bad men. Men that even the S.W.A.T. had failed to bring down.”

Silence stretches out into the gothic study, an invitation for me to continue. I clear my throat, the echo carrying through the dimly lit space. 

“Investigators found the perpetrator fast—the boy,” I explain. “He was an ingenious killer, but not a good cover-up. His crime was savage and ‘wickedly brilliant’, as the press called it, but he was still just a twelve-year old.”

“The press?”

“His crime made headlines, but only very briefly, so he’s not a liability. The Order shut down the news fast.” I raise my eyes, finding his. “And they retrieved the boy from police custody.”

“About this ingenious kill,” he says, the question implicit.

I structure the details in my mind before relaying them. His eyebrows rise gradually as I speak and, when I’m done, he rests in silence for whole minutes. 

“I don’t think the police caught the boy, Sextus,” he finally says, rising to his full size, and starting to pace the room, his long robe dragging in his wake like the cape of a vampire.

“Your Excellency?”

“He’s clearly a genius. He would have known how to cover his tracks. He simply chose not to.”

“You’re suggesting he wanted to be caught? But why?”

“You said it yourself—he’d killed big, bad men. The entire underground would have been after him. He needed protection, so he made it easy on the cops to find him.”

“An evil genius,” I say, turning the idea around in my head. The little shit is even harder than I thought.  

“Not necessarily evil.” Plutarch turns to look at me from beside the pointed window like some kind of undead Pontiff. “Angry, yes. Inherently brutal, maybe. But what he did there?” He points to the tablet on his desk. “He didn’t do it only for himself. He did it for the other boys, too. In the end, he did it for the dogs, as well.”

I lower my head more. “I’ll make sure to cauterize the altruism out of him.” 

“Make sure you do.”

“Shall I ask The Order to send you the full report about what happened in Memphis?” Since they’ve kept this under wraps, I was only allowed to see it when the boy was transferred from their custody to ours, but they didn’t let me keep a copy. 

Plutarch bristles under his beard. We all know he hates serving The Order, and asking them for anything humiliates us even more. Few of us like it, really. They’re spoiled bastards, and even though they’re well-trained, highly efficient and uncannily capable of making money, they lack the discipline and higher purpose of the Iron Cleric. In Plutarch’s mind, it’s a shame that the world’s true elite—us—is forced to serve their inferior kind. That he, a man more powerful than the Pope himself, has to answer to Clive Ferran. Of all the Triumvirate, he’s the one Plutarch despises most.

“We need complete info on the boy.” He returns to his desk and settles back down into his chair. “Get rid of the others.”

I bow down from my waist, offering him the shaved crown of my head along with the symbol of eternal loyalty he carved into it. 

A few hours after I’ve retreated from the Ebony Hall, The Order’s report has found its way into Reverend Plutarch’s hands, and I’ve gotten my reward, namely the freedom to train the boy—and to break him in all the ways I want. 

The little psycho glares at me with bloodlust as I hold the whip. Maybe imagining how he’d kill me

Turns out he adjusts his methods according to what he thinks the victim deserves. Those fuckers? He’d used a very specific cocktail of drugs to make them do each other like bitches in heat, then to rend each other like frenzied wolves. The coffee shop staff basically found rags of flesh, a man’s squashed hand still twitching. 

How Item Twenty-Seven was able to achieve all that at only twelve years of age?

The town drug lords had used him as a ‘delivery boy’ for years, during which time he’d hovered around every important meeting like a ghost. He’d watched the dealers play poker in hidden basements, and discovered the locations of their underground labs. He wormed his way into the trust of their scientists, most of whom worked with a gun at their heads. Most of them were illegals who’d been lured into the country with the promise of academia and research work, but had then been forced to work for cartels.

Soon, Item Twenty-Seven learned how to combine different kinds of hallucinogens.  He wasn’t even ten at the time, and he couldn’t even speak properly. It was the illegals who’d taught him to read and write, because he’d never been to school. It would be stupid of me to even try and deny his unusual intelligence, but I can remind him where he’s got it from.

“Your brainpower is how your genetics dealt with your crackwhore mother’s addiction. Believe it or not, you won the life lottery. You could have been born dead, an addict or with brain damage.” I drag the whip across the black stone floor, drawing a circle of his own blood around him. Despite the pain, he’s glaring at me like that alone could make me drop dead.

I hunker down in front of him. 

“Tell me, what death would you give me?” I give him the black-toothed grin that usually terrifies the boys, but it obviously doesn’t have the same effect on Item Twenty-Seven. “Would you have me OD behind a dumpster like you had those asswipes?” I lean in closer, rolling on the naked balls of my feet. “Or would you do to me what you did to that thing in the pit?”

The glint in his eye is all the answer I need.

“Ah.” I get back up. “Of course. A far more impressive feat, I’ll give you that.” I take a few moments to study him. “Far more satisfying, too, am I right?”

Instead of holding my stare he keeps his eyes ahead. A form of defiance.

“You truly are special, you know,” I say. “Making a deadly sin look so beautiful.” Then quieter, driving the fear up his spine, “beautiful, but still unforgivable. Unless, of course, you repent.”

I walk behind him, and raise the whip. His body tenses, and I stop. I lower the whip and drag it gently down between two trenches it has already carved into his flesh.

“Tell me—did you watch them go at each other?”

Silence. 

Leather whips through the air. When it lands, it cuts.

Everything in him clenches, down to the thin muscles between his protruding ribs. 

“Speak, or the next one is going to break your feeble little bones.”

“Yes,” he forces out through gritted teeth.

Finally, some progress.

“And did you like it?” 

 He won’t reply, so I bring it down on him again, the lash splitting air and his skin. 

“I liked the pit more.” The words rush out of his mouth along with a spray of spittle.

“I bet you did. But let’s go back to your original crime. Which part delighted you most? The orgy?” I hunker down behind him to spell it out in his ear. “Four grown men, fucking each other in the ass between those dumpsters? Or the squashing of each other’s hands and dicks in an animal frenzy afterwards?”

He takes a deep breath, his ribcage expanding. Next thing I know, his body relaxes, and the whole room seems to dim. The light is already minimal, the walls stripped bare, the cavernous space carrying the sound of grates dragging and falling shut. 

I stand and step back to make some distance. Just enough to take in the sight of his spinal cord sticking out like the bony spikes of a dinosaur’s fetus, his skinny ribs, the strips of blood already coagulating at the edges of his lash wounds. 

“The fucking didn’t last long.”  

“Come again?” This can’t be right. He shouldn’t be able to speak like his spirit dissociated from anything I could do to his flesh, not yet. 

A small laugh shakes his bony, bloody ribcage. It obviously hurts, but he doesn’t seem to give a shit.  

“You learn things about people when they beat you up for sport. Especially so when they use you as a soccer ball as a toddler. Needs, drives and pleasures that don’t appear in their eyes until they’re locked in a room with someone weaker.” He pauses, his spine rising along with his breathing, the silence seeming to pour out from under him like black blood. 

What a sight. I could lose track of time immersing myself into the unique suffering that seeps into the field of energy between us. 

“Soon, you learn how to spot people like them even in the light of day. You learn even quicker how to switch on their killer instinct. For these kinds of men, fucking is just a precursor of violence.”

“Good, my child,” I encourage him in a soft voice that carries through the room. “Confession is the gateway to redemption. Walk through it, and you’re halfway saved.”

His body shakes. I’m not sure whether he’s laughing or crying, not even when he speaks. 

“If men like them can be redeemed, then I don’t want it.”

“Not men like them,” I lie. “But boys like you.”

 He laughs.  

“If your God can forgive me, then he’s a monster, too.”

My tone goes even softer, the whip hanging from my hand like a guilty vestige, while his wounds glisten in the dark. 

“There is always a lesson within suffering,” I muse, slowly lowering myself behind him, placing the whip on the ground. “We come into this world to experience the entire spectrum of being human. Pain is a large part of that.”

“A disproportionate part,” he adds, his voice smaller now. Carefully, I raise my hand, and touch his damp hair. 

“You’re a smart kid, you know that?”

“Not smart enough to see the lesson.” He turns his head, just a little, leaning into my hand. I cup his head, and gently stroke his temple with my thumb. It’s cold, and wet, his pulse barely perceptible. 

“What is the lesson?” he asks, his voice ghostly. When he turns his face, I don’t see trust in his eyes—but I do see a genuine search for wisdom.

“When you learned how to spot bad men, you also learned how to protect yourself from them.” 

He shakes his head, his eyes not leaving mine. “Not that. Never that. There is no protection.”

“Even spotting them from a distance is a good way to keep oneself safe from them.”

I swipe the loose strands of hair from his face and hook them around his ear to get a clearer view of him. I lean in closer, trying to scrutinize his eyes. A faint smile pulls at the corner of his mouth, like an invitation. I get closer, and time snaps. 

The little animal is as fast as a devil. 

I instinctively slap my hand over my ear, but don’t even know what hit me until I feel the warm liquid trickling between my fingers. Then the pain hits.

“You little shit!” Goddamn it, I sound like a strangled witch. I shoot up to my feet, but stumble on my own heels and slip right back onto my ass, tangling in my own robe. 

“Fuck this, and fuck you, you little dog!” I’m Forging Father of the Iron Cleric for fuck’s sakes, I don’t get done dirty like this, not by the greatest crooks, let alone little boys. 

I rake the whip off the floor, straightening up so fast that I lose balance. For a moment I think it’s from the loss of blood, but you don’t lose that much from an ear some little whacko just bit off. 

I look down at him, contemplating dropping the whip and stabbing him to death.

How pathetic he should look hunched into a ball on the floor, hugging his knees, his skinny, lash-streaked back protruding from the ripped sides of his shirt. 

Except he doesn’t.

If anything, he resembles a possessed little creature with those grinning bloody teeth, face pale from the starvation we put him through and the loss of blood, that I’m afraid things will get worse if I kill him.  

As if he might come back to haunt me.

Afraid.

That word sticks to my mind.

I can’t remember the last time I was afraid. I killed dozens of times before, and not a damn soul came back to haunt me. They all swear to, despair raging through their pores, spittle flying out of their mouths, but they never make good on those promises. If I know one thing for sure, it’s that no one ever comes back from the Afterlife.

Yet something deep and ancient stirs in the pit of my stomach, telling me that this one just might. There’s something about his will, his rage and his gravity that feels strong enough to shape reality itself. 

The pain turns red hot as the little shit’s mouth pulls into a grin, a piece of my ear sticking out from between his bloody teeth. He spits it out viciously, the flesh slapping the stone floor. Then he just keeps staring at me with a fucking death wish.

Fuck, I want to hurt him. The sheer nerve on him. I grip the whip’s handle hard, ready to bring it down on him with a vengeance. 

But, just as I lift it, Lavinius storms in, his robe in disarray from the haste. He braces himself against the iron doorframe, catching his breath. Gulping in air, he gives me a wild look. 

“Sextus, careful!” His beady eyes dart from me to the boy and back again. “This—this can’t… It can’t go wrong.”

Wrong.

The way things have gone wrong before. 

The way I discovered that no one ever comes back to haunt the living, and why Plutarch didn’t want to put me in charge of this brat in the first place, but he was forced to in the end, because I had discovered his special talent, using my means, after The Order sent him in.  

The others think I don’t know, but tongues wag even at the monastery—of all the Forging Fathers, I’m the wild card. My ways have been on the agenda during many a meeting between Pontiffs.

I freeze with the whip in my hand, staring into Lavinius’ eyes. They’re dripping with warning and, of course, with the anguish that I might strike anyway. 

And he’s not wrong. 

Plutarch himself wouldn’t be able to stop me from teaching this little shit a lesson. Item Twenty-Seven might’ve been the bigger dog in the pit, but not here. In the cavernous dungeons under Forge Mountain, I’m breaker and executioner. Plutarch might be Reverend Father, a position he won after he forced me to my knees in the sparring ring decades ago, and carved the clerical symbol into my skull with a hot blade, but that was just a stroke of luck. Pitius had slipped poison into my porridge the night before to weaken me so he would have a chance, and Plutarch took advantage.

But all of them are very much aware that, of the seven of us, I was always the strongest. The one always ready—and able—to do what it takes to deal with little demons made flesh like this one. 

I speak the last one out loud to make it clear for Lavinius I’m not willing to bend, but he shakes his head, not taking his eyes off of mine. 

“Not this time, Sextus. The Order—”

“The Order,” I cut him off, “sent him. They’re perfectly aware that, once they do that, they have no more influence over the formation of—”

“This one is special.”

“All their recruits are. Every time they send one in, it means something, but it doesn’t compel us to keep them.” Not alive, anyway.

“That’s because The Order trust our judgment.” His eyes flick to the boy again. It takes a lot for The Order to deem someone worthy of becoming an Iron Cleric, and they only send in ‘talent’ extremely rarely. Still, we reserve the right to ‘fail’ recruits at our discretion. 

“But things are different with this one,” Lavinius insists, adjusting his tone to the low, pacifying frequency you use with volatile psychos. “The Reverend Father informed them about the starvation test you subjected him to, and its results.” 

I stick out my chin. “Oh, he did, did he? How interesting. Considering how he disapproves of my methods and how reluctantly he grants rewards.”

Lavinius looks at me a certain way. “We both know why he does that.”

“And we both know that you agree with him.”

“We all agree with him.” He looks down at the boy again, who’s been listening quietly, keeping very still. Seems he already understands the language we speak among ourselves, and maybe it shouldn’t surprise me. For a sharp mind like his, it’s peanuts. 

“But this isn’t about the Reverend Father, or the others,” Lavinius continues. “It’s about the boy. The Order has already decided that he is to become a Cleric. It’s not a request, it’s an imposition. They won’t have him leave this place like—” another quick look at the boy. That’s the thing about Lavinius, he cares too much about their feelings. It’s why he should have remained an operative, and never become a Forging Father. “—like the others did.”

My lips split as they pull into a grin. “Like the other boys from the pit.”

Item Twenty-Seven stirs. Mission accomplished. I look down at him, and even though he doesn’t return the attention, I can see that protruding pale jaw ticking.

Suddenly, the blood trickling from my ear down my neck is worth it. To think that, in decades of service, no one has gotten me like this, not even the most skilled assassins. Talent indeed. The Order sure was onto something. Too bad he seems to share Lavinius’ weakness—he cares about others. That is so easily exploitable. Look at me exploiting it right now, causing him pain in a way a whip never could.

I reluctantly return my attention to Lavinius. 

“Why?” I demand. An explanation is the least I deserve.

Lavinius hesitates. 

Annoyed as fuck, I crack the whip, leather biting down across Item Twenty-Seven’s back. His chest snaps forward, his bloodless skin stretching over his skeletal ribs. 

I laugh out loud, daring Lavinius to insist that I stop. Curious how far he’ll go. Will he throw himself down at my feet to beg? Because if one of us crosses the line and goes against The Order’s instructions, it won’t be only the perpetrator that suffers. It’ll be all of us, including him, Pitius, Morgon, Laurus, and even Plutarch. 

But all he does is issue a quiet, if charged warning. 

“Sextus…”

I crack the whip again, and this time flesh splits to the bone. It rips a cry from the little devil, but he manages to muffle it behind gritted teeth. 

Hard little bastard. 

“Stop,” Lavinius issues a second warning, and I snap.

“Or what? What can they do to us, Lavinius? We create their fucking weapons. We make the Iron Cleric! Men the Pope bows to, and world leaders cower away from. Men more influential than entire armies, deadly as human walking nukes. As for us,” I thump my finger against my chest, “we forge them! We’re the toughest bastards that ever existed. The Order wouldn’t fucking exist without us.”

“That’s exactly the thing. They’re done depending on the Forging Fathers, and they’re taking it to the next level.” He points to the boy. “Look at the little beast. The whipping, the physical torture? It doesn’t form him, like the others, much less punish him. Rather, it grounds him in his own body.” He finds my eyes again. “Containing what he’s capable of.”

My whip-holding hand starts to slacken as I begin to understand.

“They’re recruiting a different kind of brute,” I conclude, my voice fading. 

We’ve all heard rumors, but I never thought they might be true. Not even The Order would go that far. 

Lavinius holds my stare and, finally, I see it wasn’t pity he felt for Item Twenty-Seven. “I’m afraid it’s more than that. I hope I’m wrong. But it would make sense of what they want us to name him.”

I narrow my eyes as if that can help strip the whole situation down to the truth.

“And what is that?”

His mien darkens before he even says it. “Priest.”

***

Bestie. BESTIE.
Next week = more Priest. Sharper edges, bigger shadows, and stuff that’s gonna live rent-free in your head.

Also, because one obsession is never enough?? My revamped K-pop vampire serial is about to hit. Picture neon lights, sinful smiles, and idols who will literally bite the hand that feeds them.

We are entering full Dark, Delicious Romance Universe mode. Hydrate. Cancel plans. It’s about to get feral.

Let’s talk about that Frat Boy

Hey, loves!


Let me start by thanking you properly for sticking with me through every obsession, every razor-sharp kiss, every broken book boyfriend I’ve thrown your way.

If you’ve been here a while, you already know the kind of stories I tell—the ones that don’t just flirt with darkness, but make out with it in a back hallway.

And now, I thought let us go deeper down that road and sink into the world of my books until you become part of it.
Maybe you’ve already downloaded Frat Boy Billionaire and come face-to-face with Declan Santori—the man who doesn’t beg for attention… he demands it in silence.

Or maybe you’re just about to, and you’re wondering what kind of mess you’ve signed up for. 😈 If you haven’t gotten your eyeballs on the novella yet, here it is, FREE!

Now, let me give it to you straight: Frat Boy Billionaire didn’t come from a cute, polished Pinterest board. It came from a place in my head that’s dark, twisted, and wildly curious.

I’m drawn to exploring complexity. Especially in male characters.
But not just the “he has a past” kind of complexity.
I mean emotionally dangerous, deeply layered, trauma-built, morally gray men who make you question everything.
Declan is exactly that. He’s the kind of man who watches more than he speaks—and when he does speak? It’s a razor cut wrapped in velvet.

Writing him (and Mia) was more than telling a story—it was about exploring how our earliest wounds become our sharpest weapons. How sometimes, the only way two broken people can connect…
is by breaking each other first.

Their chemistry? Pure chaos.
But the kind of chaos that feels deliciously inevitable.


🖤 Ready to go deeper?

I’ve summoned three visual versions of Declan—three faces that could belong to the man you’ve met (or are about to).

But only one of them is my Declan.
The one who lived in my head as I wrote every word.
The one who whispered the darkest lines before I ever typed them.

Take a look at them.
Then tell me in a comment or an e-mail —which one is your Declan?
And maybe, just maybe… you’ll guess mine too.


More behind-the-scenes chaos, secrets, and obsession-fueled storytelling is coming soon.

xo,
Ana
🖤

P.S. Bonus points if you tell me why you picked your Declan. I read every answer. I reply to every message. And I seriously can’t wait.

“Unholy Intentions” – Chapter VI – No Sanctuary

Hey, loves!

It’s time for a brand-new chapter of Unholy Intentions! “No Sanctuary” is here, and trust me—you don’t want to miss what’s coming. Things are getting more intense, more dangerous, and even more irresistible between Hailey and Priest.

But before you dive in, I have some exciting news! The ARC team for Unholy Intentions is now open! If you’d love to get an Advance Reader Copy (ARC) and read the book before anyone else, now’s your chance!

Email me at anacalin@theromancetrove.com
ARCs will be sent between March 15th-17th, in electronic format to your e-mail, in exchange for a review on Amazon on the day of release (20th – 22nd of March), if you choose to leave one.

Make sure to let me know you want in, and I’ll add you to the list!

Now, go ahead and lose yourself in the dark obsession, deadly secrets, and possessive tension of this new chapter. As always, I love hearing your thoughts—drop a comment and let me know what you think!

 Happy reading, and welcome to the dark side!

***

Hailey

Sniffling, I look up at his face, searching for what exactly is doing this to my senses. I let my eyes slide freely over his features. He appeared so perfect last night, but frankly, I wrote it off as an effect of the club lights, the booze, and then my being so damn horny. But now that I’m sober, I see it clearly, that thing that’s so special about him, and it goes way beyond his ridiculously good looks. Those gold-green eyes seem to have known the most rotten sins, and forgiven men as terrible as Bobby Saintpatrick right before he slit their throats. A confessor who will listen without judgment, and an executioner who will kill without mercy, blended into one.

Frightening things simmer in that vastness, pulling me closer.  

A faint, barely noticeable scar slashes through his eyebrow, enhancing the dangerous edge of his allure, and I wonder what put it there. Afraid I might be too obvious, I let my eyes drop. 

To his lips.

I swear the man has the most kissable mouth I’ve ever seen. It’s an effort to keep my own shut and not ask him if he ever did taste a woman’s lips. Maybe before he became a Cleric? Before he took his vows? A stab of jealousy goes through me at that thought. If he did, I wish I were that woman. His lips look like fucking candy, and an outline of them in anime style starts taking shape in my mind. I wonder if he already knows I’m into that. 

I look away, heat rushing to my face. I don’t know what hurts more, the thought of him knowing what I like, or him touching another woman. 

“It’s all right,” he says, his voice like silk on naked skin. “You’re in shock. Anyone would be.”

He signals the other men to close the door to the service stairs. 

“No, they need to get them out, please,” I protest, tears pooling into my eyes. Priest wraps an arm around my shoulders, pulling me into his warmth as he leads me away. “Please, they can’t just leave them there like discarded carcasses.”

“They are discarded carcasses, Hailey. That’s all that’s left of them. The people you knew, they’re not in there anymore.” 

He ushers me into my bedroom and closes the door. Duckling jumps from the bed to the ottoman and from there right into my arms. I gather the warm ball of fluff to my chest, careful not to squeeze her too hard, burying my face in her white fur and thanking God for the millionth time for her. 

“When you opened that door, you chose the truth. And the truth is that those men weren’t just killed. They were slaughtered.” He pauses for just a beat. “Your stalker has a very special set of skills, one I’ve only seen among highly trained Order members.” 

A cold shiver runs down my spine.

“You’re saying,” I whisper, “my stalker is an Order fighter?” 

“One that wanted to make a point last night.”

“And how come the hotshot Brother Superior didn’t see this coming? How come you couldn’t save them?” 

His eyebrows dip, and his face seems more angular, more brutal.

You are my assignment. And you are safe,” he points out.

“Then this is all my fault,” I shriek, feeling like I’m losing it. “I did this to them. I widowed their wives, I orphaned their children.” The weight of that truth crushes me from the inside out.

Priest reaches me in a few strides, his large hands wrapping around my shoulders.

“Listen. The man who did this is the only one responsible for the massacre. He alone is responsible for his actions. Not the people who provoked them, or even the ones who benefit from them.”

Some of the weight inside lifts, allowing me to at least breathe. 

“But I did provoke him, and you know it.  It’s why you’re here.” My voice turns to a whisper. I must sound like a lunatic sharing her delusions. “The things that I did…” I want to tell him, so bad, but it won’t come out. I’m too ashamed. 

And he doesn’t push. All he does is trace my cheek lightly with his finger, and I can’t take my eyes off the golden abyss in his. They’re such a captivating shade. He cups my face in those large hands, and my lips part on a breath. His palms are calloused, everything in their texture reminding me this is a world-class killer holding my face, and yet all I want to do is step even closer, right into his personal space, and breathe his air. 

“If we were to live our lives thinking about how our actions could influence others’ decisions, you’d see a burn-out pandemic in no time. No man who’s right in the head decides to stalk a woman, no matter how maddeningly sexy she is. There’s nothing you could have done to stop this asshole.”

He thinks I’m maddeningly sexy?

I flinch when he drops his hands off me and makes a step of space between us, remembering to take a much-needed breath. 

I was never a religious person, but if God had a weapon, it would be this man, which is why I find it hard to believe the stalker was actually able to get past him. I can’t help wondering if he didn’t actually let it happen. Anything is possible in the dark vastness in his eyes, and that includes diabolical schemes. 

“Still, we need to tighten protection around you for good measure,” he says, “which is why I’m going to move in with you.”

Wait, what?

“Excuse me?” 

“I know that doesn’t leave you much personal space, but it’s the way it is,” he declares.

“The stalker didn’t get to me,” I argue because him living here, under the same roof as me, is not an option.“I’ll be fine.” Fuck, I sound desperate, but it doesn’t move him in the least.

“You need permanent monitoring, twenty-four-seven. End of discussion.” 

My skin starts to itch, and I scratch myself nervously, biting the inside of my cheek. I should just stop. Just close down the account, go off the grid. After all, what kind of woman would I be, still playing around on OhEf when a dozen men have lost their lives because of me? Even if only out of respect to them and their grieving loved ones I should stop fingering myself for pervs online. 

“Listen kitty kat, we need to get this guy sooner rather than later. Would putting up with my presence really be that terrible?” His tone becomes a lush shade of black. If I close my eyes, I might just feel it on my skin. I have no idea when he started using that pet name for me, but it bothers me far less than it should. 

“Is it true?” I whisper. “That the Cleric can hypnotize people just using their voice?”

He gives me the ghost of a smile. “It’s called conversational hypnosis.” 

 “Can you compel people to tell the truth as well?” I whisper, deepening the sense of intimacy. 

“Conversational hypnosis is a psychological technique, not an esoteric act. A skill, not a superhuman ability. So no, I don’t have fairy-land abilities.” Is it just me, or he’s even closer now? “But I am an Iron Cleric. We are bound by oath to tell the truth—if the right questions are asked.”

“So,” I breathe, “are you doing it to me right now?”  

“Does it feel like I am?”

“It feels…” A prickling sensation travels over my skin. “It feels like I’ve taken a drug that slowly unfurls through my veins.” 

“I’m here to protect you, Hailey, not to toy with you.” He steps back, his spell starting to fade.

The dead men lying at the foot of the service stairs knock right into the forefront of my brain again, and my insides knot.

“Do you ever get used to it?” I breathe. “Death?”

“The sight? Yes. The smell? Never.”

My nostrils flare at the memory of a scent I didn’t even register, but I now realize already burned itself into my brain. 

“I’d never seen a dead body before tonight.” I walk to him as if a magnet were pulling me. “I was told that dead people looked like they were sleeping. Like they could open their eyes any second, and stand, and walk, and hug their loved ones. But those men, they looked so ultimately, flagrantly dead.” My voice breaks.

“If it’s any comfort,” Priest says, “death isn’t always an ugly thing. It doesn’t always hurt, and it’s not always horrible.”

I lose myself in those gold-green eyes that pull me in like the vastness of the universe. 

“But it was horrible for those men,” I whisper. “They died in terror that twisted their faces. It didn’t even look…natural.”

Every second I look at him I remember he’s a killer, yet I gravitate toward him like a reckless little planet toward a black hole. After a moment’s hesitation, I think he’s about to tell me something big, but the door is thrown open, and a guard barges in.

“Cleric Ward,” he heaves, looking frantic. “There’s something you need to see.”

New Chapter UNHOLY INTENTIONS – Forgive me, Father.

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Priest

I’m looking at a completely naked woman on my display, and nothing happens. My s** drive is as numb as ever. Nothing is wrong with me, but all Hailey Saintpatrick had to do was breathe to give me a f***** hard-on. 

I lock the display and turn to the gear I set up in the basement of Bobby Saintpatrick’s main house, the span of a wild-grown, unattended garden between her and me. It makes both surveillance and intervention harder than it would normally be, but I’ll have that taken care of tomorrow, after tonight’s work.

I access the secure network, and the screen lights up. I’m still thinking about Hailey and the reactions of my treacherous body to her.  

I never blame women for the devilry of men, but in her case, the Forging Fathers might have been right. If no other woman has this effect on me, then there must be something about her that does this. There must be something about those big eyes with the long, curved eyelashes that makes every guy turn wild. Maybe that’s why Marius Loveless chose me for the job. Maybe he thought I was the only one who could resist her.

I type the code into the search bar. A few moments later, I’m through the firewalls and into the portal I need. 

Hailey had to deal with a lot of shit growing up, and she sought refuge online. First in anime, then in hentai. The bigger her problems in real life, the sicker the p*rn of her fantasy. A few months ago, she got herself a secure internet line over satellite and made an OhEf channel to create her own cosplay of her favorite hentai series. 

Clearly, she didn’t expect the wild success she ended up having. Now, she’s got a stalker on her trail who knows how to make himself untrackable. A leech that won’t stop until he drains her lifeblood. 

I have to approach her channel in the same way he did, like a creep, making sure no one can track down my avatar, and keeping a low profile. 

When her picture pops up, my hands freeze on the keyboard. 

‘Hentai Hellcat’ is staring out of hazel eyes into the camera, natural chocolate-brown ringlets of hair falling down around her delicate, round shoulders, curling over the upper part of her breasts. The lower part is pixelated, right where her nipples are, a blurred shade of pink. An inviting little smirk curls up a corner of her sweetly shaped mouth, and I immediately understand why she has over one hundred thousand followers.

Hailey Saintpatrick could have served as a muse of sensuality for the greatest painters. Everything about her is natural besides the tiara with cat ears on top of her head and the schoolgirl blush she applied to her cheeks. Especially the lust she expresses. It’s hypnotizing.

A few clicks take me to how many of those followers are paying members of her channel. About half, which is huge by industry standards, which confirms my original suspicion—she has the same effect on most men, and she’s completely oblivious to it. I could tell how oblivious from the moment I met her, from her body language, from the tone of her voice and the look in her eyes, but she’s aware enough of her options not to have given up her V-card to just anyone. She wanted one of the popular guys. 

I was just an interesting addition to her list of options. 

Tempting a clergyman has the allure of the forbidden. What she doesn’t know is that I’m also a psycho. The last thing Hailey Saintpatrick wants is me being allowed to have my way with her.  

The next click takes me to a call-to-action button—PERV ACCESS.

My c**k surges, and I curse under my breath to keep the filthy bastard down. So she’s deliberate about her target audience, and I’m sure as f** part of it.

Another click, and a dozen pixelated pictures fill the screen. You can tell she’s wearing (READ THE WHOLE CHAPTER ON Patreon) (Get The Book).

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“Happy birthday, little angel,” Jax murmurs in my ear, removing my blindfold.

My jaw drops as I take in the breath-taking Bridgerton-like castle, complete with majestic flower arrangements and a large patio awaiting guests. I can see the pearl-dripping chandeliers behind the humongous windows, and the staff scurrying around behind them, still working on the setting.   

“Jesus Christ,” I shriek. I’ve seen much luxury in the years that I’ve been married to one of the richest men in America, but this is a whole new level. “This is incredible!”

My husband places a hand on the small of my back, leading me to the patio. At the sight of Jax and me arriving, the staff scurries away.

“Why do they—”

“Because they know when to leave the boss alone with his wife,” he purrs in that voice that never fails to get me wet. I rub my thighs together, glancing around as if anyone could smell me. But Jax turns my head back to him with a finger under my chin. 

“Careful now. You know how possessive I am of your attention.”

“How do you do it?” I whisper, staring at him in awe. He knows what I mean. The sight of his face still captivates me, the same way it did the first time I saw him walking out of the elevator in the lobby of Vaughn Tower in Manhattan.

“Do you like it?” he asks, avoiding my own question. I know that he doesn’t perceive his own devilish green eyes, incredible bone-structure and the all-too-lickable shade of his skin the same way I do. He doesn’t hate himself quite as forcefully as he did when we first met either, a lot of that has healed, but there’s still a trace of self-loathing in his veins, which is a sacrilege in itself. But I won’t rest until he learns to love himself at least a tenth of how much I love him.

“Let’s just say it isn’t exactly what I expected.” I choose not to tell him I would have loved him to put on the studded leather mask of The Spartan, the one he used in the underground fights, and let me ride his face while he wore it. Now that years have passed and he no longer risks his life in the ring, I started to indulge in fantasies about it. “But I’m definitely not disappointed. Still, it does surprise me that—” I glance around at the arrangements that are clearly set up for guests, “—you know, that you’re willingly sharing me with other people.”

He said he was possessive of my attention, and boy, was that an understatement. Jax still clenches his jaw whenever he has to share me with the public, and I know he has a hard time distracting himself when I’m out with Mia and Sirenna, even though he never tried to restrict my nights out with the girls. Still, he does always keep me to himself if he has a choice, despite Declan’s and Zayne’s attempts to get him out his shell. They probably always fail because they actually prefer the company of their own wives, too. Bad boys will be bad boys until they’re pussy-whipped—that’s what Jax says every time we all go out together, and he never minds Declan’s “right back at you”.

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Red Flags – Chapter 1

Release Day – 12th of August 2024

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I wanted a monster’s attention. I wasn’t ready for his obsession.

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Filthy rich, powerful, and devastatingly handsome, Carlton Wilde is an unattainable luxury.

Especially for someone like me—a scholarship student at his elite college, and a far cry from the beauties wrangling for his attention. 

But when I’m alone at night he’s all I think about. So I put on a mask and worm my way into his secret night life to lose my v-card to him, certain he’ll never discover my true identity. 

Except he does, and I wake up to his first rose. 

And the roses keep appearing—on my windshield, at the library, even among my sheets, each one more sinister than the last. 

Because the roses never come alone. 

I realize too late the dangerous game I’ve been playing. Trapped, I must confront the terrifying truth: in Carlton Wilde’s world, there’s no such thing as a happy ending.  

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CHAPTER I – Excerpt

Annie

There he is.

Carlton Wilde, a.k.a. the iron fist of the Heathen Kings. The designer suit wrapped around his muscular body has all the girls here sighing and giggling, and when that million dollar smile appears, nervous laughter breaks out all around him. 

I swallow against the dryness in my throat. The man is out of everybody’s league, not just mine. Plus, there’s no version of this world in which he’s not marrying the tall, aristocratic blonde on his arm. And not just because that’s who the Elders chose for him, but because he’s an incorruptible member of the highly exclusive Heathen group. It’s a miracle that he even came to the engagement party of his fellow Kings to women they broke the rules for. He was very much against both of those relationships.

As for his fiancée, Rosalind Hayes, what can I say? Her looks match the power attached to her name and, by the way she prances in her impossibly high heels by his side, she knows it. Carlton is tall enough to dwarf her despite her stilettos, which I’m pretty damn sure turns her on. For a moment, I imagine what I would look like at his side. Even in high heels, I’d barely reach his shoulder. I’d look like a schoolgirl next to a sculpted god.

I’ve never been ashamed of my own desires, but I do feel a little stupid watching glossy-skinned models drooling over him. Especially since I have tried everything to get his attention. I even made fake profiles online and sent him nudes—from the neck down, of course, so he wouldn’t recognize me.

“You can still book a night with him, you know,” a familiar voice croaks behind me.

I glance over my shoulder at Doreen Dames—or the Matron, as Mireille likes to call her. She’s cradling a glass of wine in her heavily jeweled hand, her signature long fingernails giving her a distinctly witchy vibe. It’s pretty much her whole thing, really, with that red lipstick, the too-white foundation, and her tattooed eyebrows. She’s chewing gum to cope with her nicotine deficit. She could smoke out on the patio, but I guess she prefers to keep up appearances at this event.

I’m not surprised that Micah invited her along with his bikers. Duke Micah Royales has never made a secret of his scandalous lifestyle as the head of the ravenous pack of beasts that is the Flaming Skulls, nor of his friendship with Doreen, an older woman who arranges for girls like me to have their fantasies fulfilled by pierced, tattooed goons. 

Goons whom I just saw in the great hall a few rooms down, drinks in hand, grabbing their cocks and sticking their tongues out at appalled ladies clutching their pearls. A few sorority girls were giggling like horny teenagers as I followed Carlton into the wide open space. 

“I can’t afford the fee.” 

Doreen’s groan tells me she just rolled her eyes.

“I’d think you’d be done whining by now.”

My eyes remain locked on Carlton, certain he won’t notice me through the crowd.

“It’s my reality,” I say, taking in his smile and chiseled jaw, his skin a very lickable shade of melted caramel. 

“Money isn’t the only form of payment I take, you know.” Doreen stands closer behind me now, her voice as insidious as a snake’s hiss. “The Flaming Skulls love themselves a juicy piece of innocent ass.” 

“If I was going to pay for something, it would be to lose my virginity to Carlton,” I push out through my teeth.

“And that’s exactly what I’d be happy to help you with.” Her voice is now so subtle that I feel as though I can hear it only inside my head.  

“Then what’s my bargaining chip? What can I possibly give you if I don’t have my virginity?” It’s no secret that a girl’s virginity is one of the Matron’s favorite currencies. Mireille lost hers—or rather offered it on a golden platter—to the entire biker gang. But that’s what she wanted, and a twisted love affair was born from that event. I still shudder thinking about the guy with the forked tongue and the Viking beard emerging from her room a few days ago. 

“I’m sure we can work something out.” Doreen slurps her wine, the grating sound creeping along my skin. 

“I can’t go into this blind.” I know better than to leave the terms of our hypothetical agreement at Doreen’s discretion. 

“I’m not asking you to.” She leans forward over my shoulder so that her face is now aligned with mine, and we’re both looking at Carlton. “I’m just keeping my eyes on the prize, trying to evaluate its worth.” Then, licking her lips. “Hmmm, he’s delish. So much elegance and ferocity packed into one being. Deadly and devastating, and unattainable for everyone here.” She turns her head to me. “But he could be attainable for you.”

My eyes burn as I stare at him talking to the people around him, and I realize I haven’t blinked in more than a minute. A smile spreads on his face as Rosalind laughs and loops both her arms around one of his. Doreen is right. He’s devastating, especially when he gives the world that million dollar smile that has everyone around him melting.

“If this happens, he can’t know it was me.” I won’t be able to live with it if my identity transpires. Carlton would back off a hundred percent. We never talk, but he doesn’t seem to like me much, probably because of how obvious I’ve been, staring at him in the cafeteria. 

“You’d be wearing a mask. He wouldn’t have you without one anyway.” 

“What do you mean?”   

Her red lips pull into a smile, her red lipstick cracking.

“Do you think Sade and Micah are the only fucked up Kings?”  She motions in the general direction of the soon-to-be grooms holding Justine and Eva close to them as if hawks were circling to steal them away. “Look at them. Ready to take on the Incredible fucking Hulk if that’s what it costs to keep their women. Sade would wipe out an entire government for his pretty little poet, and everyone here knows it. That’s why they stare at him in fear, like he’s a ticking time bomb. As for Micah, he took on the Elders, which should have been pure suicide. But Carlton Wilde.” She clicks her tongue and shakes her head, staring in his direction like he’s the crown jewel of her discourse. “He’s something else. Not only a rule follower but a rule enforcer. The golden boy of the Heathen Kings if there ever was one.”

“Yeah, he went ballistic when Sade and Micah chose to go against the Elders.” Which is also why my attention has always annoyed Carlton. He doesn’t care for the infatuations of horny girls who throw themselves at him. If anything, he despises them.

“What you don’t know is who he is behind closed doors.” Doreen’s voice lowers, and the air around us thickens. “For all his strong principles, Carlton Wilde has a shadow side. Your crush is no knight in shining armor, Annie, and the things he likes to do to women aren’t for the faint of heart.”

I bite my lip so hard that I taste blood, remembering the smoldering darkness that took over those eyes when he found me crouching in a corner during the mayhem a few months ago. Remembering how he had spirited me away, keeping me safe from the bullets and the knives.

“It’s what I want,” I whisper. “I want him to go feral on me.”

As feral as he was that night, when he caught one of the Morningstars’ hitmen standing over me with a psychotic grin on his face, blade in hand, looking forward to killing me. The man was rabid with bloodlust. I made myself smaller in the corner, hopeless at the prospect of his next move. But Carlton’s blade slid across his throat from behind. 

That moment that will haunt me forever. 

Blood gushed out in the wake of his knife, and the attacker’s stunned carcass fell to the floor. I knew that, in his last moment, the high was gone, and he was fully aware that trying to harm me was the biggest mistake he’d ever made. Carlton flipped him on his back with the tip of his blood-splattered designer shoe.

Then he looked at me.

The ferocity in his deeply dark eyes, the molten bestiality in them, spoke volumes. He bent down to me and, next thing I knew, I was cradled in his powerful arms, his large hand cupping my head and keeping my face to his chest so I wouldn’t see the mayhem all around us.

But I did see things when he put me down in order to get Micah and Eva out of the lounge study. I threw up for days, and the nightmares haven’t stopped since. There are still nights when I wake up screaming, and the only thing that calms me down is the memory of his scent, the protective warmth of his body, of my cheek pressed to his chest, slick with the blood of the man he killed for me.

He killed for me.

Every time, I lay back down focusing on the memory of him like a mantra. 

Carlton’s eyes shift. They find me so quickly that I could swear he’s been aware of my exact position in the room the entire time. His gaze is like smoldering coals, sending heat all over my skin. 

“I mean it, Doreen,” I whisper through barely moving lips. “If we do this, he can never know it was me.”

He looks away with that tic pulsing in his jaw, annoyed by the fact that he caught me staring again. 

“Don’t worry. We take the utmost care with the delicate nature of these things. Not to mention that he will be very much distracted by your body. He won’t care about who it is behind the mask. You’re exactly his type.” Her breath comes skin-crawlingly close to my ear. “He’s been asking for girls like you lately.”

I angle my head to her. “Girls like me?”

“Mhm.” She slurps from her wine again, then smacks her lips without giving a damn about the aristocrats staring at her in disgust while passing by. “He’s wanted them small and delicate for months. Perky round tits and round ass. Hard to find, that lot. If we play our cards right, he might actually pay for you.”

The idea sends a squirm down my thighs. I like the thought of Carlton paying for me, and not because of the money. But because of what it would mean—that he actually wants me. And being wanted by him is my greatest wish. I want to leave a dent in his memory, a mark in his life that no other woman will be able to erase. If my type is what he’s into, then here’s my chance. 

I face Doreen in full, her nicotine-yellowed teeth showing as her lips pull in another grin. 

“Name your price.”

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Jax Vaughn

Not everybody has a price. But everybody has a weakness, and I’ll find Adalia Ross’s if it’s the last thing I do.

The little angel refused my proposition, but we both know, it’s only a matter of time until I’ll have my twisted way with her.

From the moment I saw her, desire raged through me, making me rock hard. It’s been a long time since a woman had this effect on me.

This little angel opened up Pandora’s box, and there’s no closing down that lid again.

I’m a ruthless, relentless bastard, and now, I’m obsessed.

So welcome to the devil’s den, little angel. One way in, no way out. Because who would choose to stay with the broken monster lurking in the dark?

Declan Santori

I spent seven years running away from a monster.

Now that he found me again, his punishment will be ruthless.

And the worst thing? He’ll make sure I come hard for it.

Lord Declan Santori is a devil clad in sophisticated allure.

Few know the real him like I do.

Behind his billions and his strikingly handsome face, he’s twisted, wicked, and relentless.

He spent years plotting his revenge, and he won’t stop until I hit rock bottom.

Until he’s tortured me with such dark pleasure that I never dream of leaving him again. Bent on making me his adoring slave, he goes uncovering the secret I worked so hard to keep buried all my life. I have to save myself, or he’ll drag me straight back into hell. And this time I’ll beg to stay.

Zayne Thorngren

I’m this city’s golden boy, a celebrated pharma lord.

Some call me the real-life Lex Luthor, while others say I’m my very own brand of vicious.

A member of The Order with no weaknesses. No soft spots. No addictions.

Except for watching Sirenna Carter.

Imagining dirty, nasty scenarios with her.

So when she asks for protection from the city mafia, I demand payment right there on the couch in my office. It should still my lust and get her out of my system, right?

Wrong.

Because now I’m obsessed.

Possessed by a need that’s out of this f*cking world.

I will destroy her enemies and put the world at her feet, but can I protect her from the monster lurking beneath my skin? And when my secret starts creeping out from the shadows of my past, will this twisted love be enough to save us?

Sade Royales

One thing you should never do on campus – get on the radar of the Heathen Kings.

They’re golden campus boys by day and warlords by night.

Cruel rulers of the world.

Set to marry virgin heiresses and use lesser mortals, like me, for their dirty pleasures.

Sade Royales? He’s a mouthwatering bastard with a sadistic streak that’s always fascinated me–safely, from afar.

But now I’ve done something that’s drawn his attention, and my life will never be the same.

Now, he’s out to haunt me.

Use me for his perverted desires.

Judging by his reputation, he’ll discard me afterward and take pictures of the mess.

Yet when the police come sniffing about the disappearance of my ex-boyfriend, he steps in for me. He swears to protect me. But there’s a deeper plot behind his actions, and soon I start discovering my place in Sade’s wicked plans. One thing is for sure – if he’s going to hell, he’s taking me with him. The question is, do I even want to fight it?

Micah Royales

He’s stalking me with one thing in mind—revenge.

Micah Royales is a Heathen King. A ruthless elite above billionaires, politicians, and the law.

He’s also a student at the college where I teach.

Convinced that I’m having an affair with his stepfather and greatest enemy, Micah sets out to use me against him and tear me apart in the process. He destroys my reputation in front of my students by making it look like he’s my boy toy. Yet it turns out this methodical destruction isn’t even my biggest problem.

Being wanted by the nefarious weapon that is Micah Royles is.

His obsessive attention becomes a prison, trapping me in a chaos of perverted sensuality. Fighting his corruption is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I need to get out of this affair before it’s too late. Before my ultimate secret comes to light, turning Micah’s passion into hatred. Once he finds out what I’ve been hiding from him all this time, he’ll make sure there’s nothing left of me but a ravaged shell, discarded at the devil’s feet.

Because there’s no forgiveness in Micah’s world.

There’s only vicious retribution.

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Results:

Jax:

You have a deep need for a strong, willful, dominant partner who takes control, but also shows deep and focused interest in you. Someone who will dive deep and discover desires buried so deep that you might not acknowledge them yourself. You might be attracted to a father-figure, someone you can rely on for guidance and support. You might mistake dominance for safety. You’ve probably had to fend for yourself since a very young age, and you’re probably used to being the one people rely on in times of need. To a worthy partner you’d offer genuine admiration, loyalty, complete honesty, and the way you submit can be entrancing. You might be a natural born submissive, even though no one could tell in your social life, where you probably come off as strong, self-sufficient and often stubborn. The way you stare at a man who awakens feelings in you can be fascinating to the man in question because it’s such a contrast to your everyday self.

Declan:

Your deepest need is to be wanted, even to the point of insanity and toxicity—it actually needs to get to that level for you to feel safe. Your fear of abandonment might be stronger than average, maybe considerably so. Your parents might have failed to make you feel loved. Your sense of not having been loved could be on par with that of people who grew up orphans. You’re a giver by nature. You’d give yourself completely to the man who makes you feel like his entire world revolves around you. It is true that he can’t be someone who’s like this to everyone—you crave a bad boy who is only a lovesick puppy for you. Problem is that you need high levels of intensity to maintain your interest in a relationship, so you might subconsciously keep the toxicity going and even amp it up. Low self-esteem might be a problem, but you’re also capable of awakening feelings in your partners that they never experienced before. Still, the self-esteem issue, if present, must be addressed. You can remain the same unforgettable person without the pathology. A healthy relationship can reach the same levels of intensity as a toxic one, and the levels of bliss can surpass all imagination. 

Zayne:

You crave a partner who will help you realize your own shine, strengths and value. Who will help build up your self esteem. What you value most is a feeling of competence. Maybe you’re already highly competent in your field, no matter what your job is. You are reliable, on time, and always efficient, but the responsibility could be too much at times. You crave a partner you can look up to, with whom you can feel extremely safe and who will take control to show you heights of emotion you never had the time or the energy to develop before. Someone who can help you become the best that you can be. A sense of being protected is paramount for you, and it’s not something you should bargain on in real life relationships. Because you are highly intelligent, you need to feel that your partner surpasses you in that in order to feel safe and like you are progressing in life. One of the reasons people love to be around you because you always seem to have the right words to make them feel awesome about themselves, which is a fantastic trait to have.

Sade:

As a young person, you may not have had the time to explore all the dark nooks and crannies of your personality and especially your sexuality. Your considerable sensuality is inhibited either by education or lack of experience, and you crave someone who will coax you out of your shell and ease you into the world of pleasure. A feeling of shame and inadequacy might have plagued your young years. You may have been made to feel bad about your cravings and desires back when you were young and were exploring means of expression. You crave a partner with whom you can be safe expressing your deepest desires, who understands and accepts you to the darkest corners of your soul. You are probably also one of the most understanding people alive. You have a knack for human psychology and probably nothing scares you or makes you think less of a person. No darkness is too dark. People gravitate to you when they need deep-rooted bonding, and you can be a real source of nurturing.

Micah:

You are attracted to forbidden and taboo romance. Maybe the greatest love of your life so far was a forbidden or unrequited one. There’s an inherent craving in you for the unattainable, one that makes you a dreamer as well as a sufferer. One of your best traits is that you feel nothing is impossible. You probably work hard for what you want, and you tend to encourage others to do the same, helping them to believe in themselves again when they lose direction. You might take some masochistic pleasure from wallowing. For you, love isn’t worth it if it doesn’t hurt a little. You may be inclined to inflict the same kind of pain on a partner, a fact which, in turn, hurts you too, stirring feelings of guilt. After a few early experiences, you  may settle for a healthy, picture-perfect relationship in real life that makes you feel safe, but deep down you crave adventure and the forbidden. Still, you appreciate a stable partner who offers you the right environment to flourish, and you know how to keep such a partner satisfied and invested in you. You also instinctively know how to bring the needed spice into the relationship at the right time, which keeps reigniting your partner’s desire for you. 

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